"message in a bottle"

I'm sorry I haven't talked to you in so
long. I feel like I've been lost, no bearings,
no compass. I kept crashing into things, a
little crazy, I guess. I've never been lost before.
You were my true north. I could always
steer for home when you were my home.

Forgive me for being so angry when you left.
I still think some mistake's been made, and I'm
waiting for God to take it back. But I'm doing
better now. The work helps me.

Most of all, you help me. You came into
dream last night with that smile of yours that
always held me like a lover, rocked me
like a child. All I remember from the dream is
a feeling of peace. I woke up with that feeling
and tried to keep it alive as long as I could.
I'm writing to tell you that I'm on a journey
toward that peace and to tell you I'm sorry
about so many things.

I'm sorry I didn't take better care of you,
so you never spent a minute being cold
or scared or sick. I'm sorry I didn't try harder
to find the words to tell you what was feeling.
I'm sorry I never fixed the screen door. I fixed
it now. I'm sorry I ever fought with you.
I'm sorry I didn't apologize more. I was too
proud. I'm sorry I didn't bring you more
compliments on everything you wore and every
way you fixed your hair. I'm sorry I didn't hold
on to you with so much strength that even God
couldn't pull you away...


- kiri minu lemmikfilmist.